In an interview for ITV, Prince Harry shared the intimate moment between him and King Charles the day Princess Diana died, with his father telling him, “They tried, darling boy. I’m afraid she didn’t make it.”

Prince Harry, who was only 12 years old at the time, recalled his thought process when his father announced the news.

“I remember thinking, crash…okay, but she’s alright? Yes?” the Duke of Sussex recalled, sharing the glimmer of hope he had that his mother had survived the crash.

“I remember waiting patiently for Pa to confirm that: indeed, Mummy was alright, and I remember him not doing that,” he continues.

Harry admitted that following the devastating loss in 1997, he felt “numb to the whole thing” and that when he saw the paparazzi photos of the crash, he was “looking for something to hurt”.

He also said that there were discussions on whether or not he would join William in following their mother’s coffin at the funeral procession, but he concluded that, ” I would never let him do that alone”.

Harry recalled the haunting moment , saying, “The wails from the crowd, otherwise complete silence, is something that will stick with me forever”.

He also expressed the guilt that both he and Prince William felt when they walked around Kensington Palace, with millions of people mourning and “there we were shaking people’s hands, smiling”.

He revealed that he only cried once at her burial and that “everyone thought and felt like they knew our mum. And the two closest people to her, the two most loved people by her, were unable to show any emotion in that moment.”

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